In your atmosphere.

I don’t think im gonna go to L.A. anymore
I don’t think im gonna go to L.A. anymore
I don’t know what its like to land
And not race to your door
I don’t think im gonna go to la anymore
I don’t think im gonna go to L.A. anymore
I’m not sure that I really ever could
Hold on to your hotel key in your bedroom neighborhood
Be sleepwalking in Hollywood

I’m gonna steer clear
Burn up in your atmosphere
I’m gonna steer clear
Cause I’d die if I saw you,
Die if I didn’t see you there
So I don’t think I’m gonna go to L.A. anymore

I don’t think I’m gonna go to L.A. anymore
Get lost on the boulevard at night
Without your voice to tell me
I love you, take a ride
The 10 and the 2 is the lonely side

I’m gonna steer clear
Burn up in your atmosphere
I’m gonna steer clear
Cause I’d die if I saw you
Die if I didn’t see you
I’m gonna steer clear
Burn up in your atmosphere
I’m gonna steer clear
Cause I’d die if I saw you,
Die if I didn’t see you there
See you there

Think I’m gonna stay, gonna stay in the grey
I think I’m gonna stay
All the streetlights say nevermind, nevermind
And the canyon lines say nevermind
Sunset says we see this all the time
Nevermind
Never you mind.

Wherever I go,
Whatever I do,
I wonder where I am in my relationship to you.
Wherever you go,
Wherever you are,
I watch your life play out in pictures from afar.
Wherever I go,
Whatever I do,
I wonder where I am in my relationship to you.
Wherever you go,
Wherever you are,
I watch that pretty life play out in pictures from afar.

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One of Mayer's artistic work and amazingly poignant words, I soaked my night plugging into this song and putting it on loop. There's something endearing listening to John Mayer whilst my insides in turmoil and pain. It relieves yet sends jolts of blue.

Foot note: Dear readers, I sat infront of the screen for almost 2 hours, figuring out what else to include, how else to explain what and how I feel. I couldn't came up with anything that may steer me from my emotionally-ridden state and thus, I feel, I should end here. I am tired, tired from thinking and piercing ungrounded thoughts together, in hope that some light may be shed. I suppose, fate and all else have a funny way of conveying my answer to " What's next? " and I regret to say that perhaps, I may have known it all along, only I chose to ignore.. just because. Mayer is right, "Sunset says we see this all the time, nevermind.." I will always ask from someone or something for some explanation or form of consolation, only to realise that deep down, no matter what, it's something that I cannot fathom and mould it the way I see fit. It's an odd mixture of feeling disconnected and yet, connected.

Perhaps, too.. " I'm gonna steer clear " ..